Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Loss

Lately I have had a lot of things go through my head.

Loss /los/ Noun
The state or feeling of grief when deprived of someone or something of value.

A few days ago a lot of people mourned the death of a beloved girl whom we all lived around. Someone who could brighten anyone's day and could make them feel happy.

She meant the world to so many people. She had a loving boyfriend, terrific friends, beloved family...all who are now missing a piece.

Death is a funny thing. Many fear death. Many think that death is the end, but it's really not.

When someone dies it doesn't mean that they're completely far from you.. they are simply taken from view. Gone, vanished, and removed from our daily lives. The problem with this is that we attach ourselves so strongly to people that when they're gone, a part of us is gone too.

We were all made to die. I have been reading Alma, and in Chapter 42 verse 8 we learn that the death is essential to happiness.

“Now behold, it was not expedient that man should be reclaimed from this temporal death, for that would destroy the great plan of happiness."
Although grieving is necessary and a normal action of life, you think about the great plan of Happiness our Lord presented. Death isn't just the end...it's the beginning of a great and new life! They're out of this wicked and trial filled world. They're happy, and with our Savior.

There are things that we don't want to happen, but we have to accept them. But it goes with everything in life. There are tons of things we don't want to know, but we have to learn them, and there are people we can't live without, but we have to let go.

We have to live each day like it's our last. I know that saying is thrown around a lot, but really think about it. In my friend's case who recently died, she was on a hike. A simple hike and fell. There are things that we can't control, and bad things happen. She was needed in Heaven, and she'll be looking down at all those below.

Tell those you love that you love them. Be honest, genuine and faithful. Do the things you know you should do, because what if tomorrow you don't have the time, or other things like that.

"The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen."

-Elizabeth Kubler Ros
The weird thing about loss is that life actually goes on. You think "how can I go on with this huge trial occurring in my life?" but if you really think about it...when you're faced with a tragedy, somehow the world keeps turning, and the seconds keep ticking.

Everyone is going to lose people in their life and realize that no matter how much time you spent with them or how much you appreciated them, it never seemed enough. So make sure they know how much you love them. Send a cute text, tell your friends that they've helped you grow up so much. Tell your parents thank you for being hard on you--for you grew up into a great person.

Live without regrets, and grow into the person you WANT to be, because frankly you don't know how long you'll live.
“When we lose a near and dear friend, upon whom we have set our hearts, it should be a caution unto us.…Our affections should be placed upon God and His work, more intensely than upon our fellow beings.” (Teachings of the Prophet Joseph Smith, p. 216.)
Miss you Laney Peacock. God be with you til we meet again.


Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Chances & Blessings

Lately I've been contemplating life. haha it sounds like a big deal but yeah not that awesome. I just lately have been thinking of how blessed I am.

I often times think of how many things are going wrong in my life, and I don't really stop and think about how awesome and how grateful I should be.

Blessings in my life are:
My Family :)


living closer to them, I realize how blessed I am for them. I have the greatest parents in this entire freaking world. haha. they're always in tune with the spirit and they always know when I'm having a hard time. It's so great. and not to get all churchy-but they're SUPER good examples of who I want to be. They're full of knowledge, and always willing to work their church calling to the fullest. They're truly the best parents around, and I'm so grateful for them.

Friends.
I know I always talk about my friends and family as being awesome, but I just am so grateful. Friends mean sooo much to me, and I have been blessed with soooo many great ones.

Lately I have been really grateful for one inparticular. Miss Madisen Porter. She's helped me a lot lately and I really am grateful for her! A lot of the time friends can make you stress out, or just bring you down, but Madi is like, the perfect example of who I want to become, and I am so grateful that I have the opportunity to be so close to her! I'm sad I'm farther away from her, but phones are great inventions.

My Job:
Honestly I have been super blessed with jobs throughout my life. I've never gone too long without a job, and the ones I've gotten have always been really flexible, and I enjoy them all. Currently I work for a company called "Boomerang Leads" and I am a web designer and internet marketing specialist :). Yes, it's a long title, but I work 7-8 hours a day and I really enjoy it! I have grown a lot I think as a designer, and I love how laid back my job is! I've taken off weeks at a time for Lake Powell or other vacations and they're always accommodating, they also great with my "sleeping in" problem sometimes. I get to pick what time I go into work! Although I try to be in around 10. It's great, especially where I want to still have a life even though I graduated college.

The Gospel:
Recently my family has been reading the Book Of Mormon again, and since I don't live at home, I just read it on my own, and we're doing the "100 day BOM challenge" and so it's kind of a lot of reading, but my love for the book has grown soooo much recently! I get into the stories more, and just, I really enjoy it! I also feel that the Lord is so close to me lately. I started going to a new ward on Sunday and I already feel a part of it! I'm really grateful for all that He has given me! I am also grateful for the Priesthood, and my Father always being willing to give me blessings. When I have ever had a hard time, my Dad's always there to help me out, and he always helps me! I love him so much.

New Experiences:
I've been dreading change for so long, that now that it's starting to come, I'm so glad! I needed a change. I'm glad I am starting to change. I feel that I'm more of the person I WANT to be. I want to be confident, happy and fun. Sometimes in St. George I'd get so involved in being someone else, that I wasn't who I am. I believe I'm "CREATING" myself, and that's what I want to be. I'm becoming someone I'm proud of, and for that I can't be grateful enough.

Taking Chances:
Recently (as in yesterday) I had a quick little ya know..break down sort of thing about taking chances. I was worried that I'd done the wrong thing and that forever I'd be messed up. haha dramatic I know, but after sleeping on it and stuff, I was presented with a quote that sticks out in my mind. A friend of mine posted it the other day and it said:


I've contemplated this a lot, and this saying honestly, made me sooo much happier yesterday. Taking Chances is such a hard thing for me to do. A best friend of mine once described me as "careful." She said I was careful in everything from driving, school, and most importantly relationships. I think this is why I've never fully fallen in love is because I'm way to scared to even try. I'm not one to put myself out there when I really like someone. Well, the other day I did, and well, we'll see how it goes soon. I mean, I guess you never really know what will happen unless you try, and the worst that can happen is that it doesn't work and you look stupid for a little bit, but hey you'll get over it! & yeah. that's what I'm doing with my life now.

My favorite TV show -- " The Office" has a quote on it that Pam said. It says:

"I have decided that I'm going to be more honest. I'm going to tell people what I want. Directly. So, look out world, cause ol' Pammy is getting what she wants. And, don't call me Pammy."

haha well, I'm gonna get what I want I think. I hope, hah. Look out world cause ol' Meagy is gettin what she wants!

So take Chances, live each day...ya know the common sayings people say--they really could make a difference!