Dixie State College!
The place I have LOVED the last 3 years...
Met 1,000 friends who have made me the person I am today.
Had a BLAST almost every single day.
Lived in the sun & heat.
Went on so many adventures I can't count em.
Found my passion.
Got my education.
On my own. This is the place I truly GREW up.
Made plenty of stupid decisions.
If I think about it, St. George, Utah is where I've done the most growing in my life.
I grew up in a little town and had a terrific family and friends, and getting the opportunity to leave it and grow on my own was yet, a challenge, but it has been an amazinggggg ride-- to say the least.
Probably the thing with the most impact on me is: FRIENDS.
I fall veryyyy quickly into the decisions of others. I'm very easily persuaded...which sucks.
I wish this weren't the case...but I wouldn't be who I am today without seeing the things I have.
I honestly love saying "i've lived." I know I haven't experienced stuff, but I am proud to say that I got out of my "Brigham Bubble," drove 360 miles away and got to see the world for myself. I saw things that lots haven't. I know what's out there (I don't know a lot--this is true, but I have seen all I want to see). When I mean I've seen what I want to see, I mean in the "worldly" aspect. I've been to Vegas nummmmmerrrous times. I've been to parties I can't count. and I've seen things that I can truly say that I understand the world a lot more than those who never leave their original city. I'm not saying that there's not this stuff there...cause there is. I'm just saying that coming here, I've gotten to experience things COMPLETELY on my own. I don't have my parent's to rely or report to. I make the decisions I make FOR me.
One thing I've learned being here is not to judge ANYONE. It comes back to haunt you if you do. I can't say how many times I've thought badly about a person for doing something and then find myself doing the same thing. It sucks to admit this, but yeah. People are AMAZING. Everyone makes their own choices. It's funny to see where people really end up, and if they have enough drive to get them to where they want to be. Everyone is the way they are for a reason. I feel that coming here has also helped me realize this. Going to college, you meet thousands of people you've never seen before. You have to start from scratch. You have to learn about them...from the time they were born to adolescence to adult hood. You learn why a person drinks. You learn why a person is addicted to drugs. I'm not saying that people get excuses for stuff, but I'm saying that everyone is the way they are for a reason...Never EVER judge someone before you understand their situation...and again, you can't really judge after that. I love people in general...they're amazing.
You know their name...not their story.
Is what I have to say to anyone who wants to judge someone. The place I've noticed this in my life recently is people I want to date, or have dated. So many judge someone off of what they have done, and not what they bring to the table. Great people make mistakes too.. Some larger than others and I'm not justifying anything...they just fell.
No one has the right to judge anyone. Many think they have that power, but they don't. They may know stories, or confessions...but they don't truly know someone. They don't know how it is to be that other person. Especially because there are things we don't even admit to ourselves...
I'm sorry. I didn't mean for this to turn into a psychobabble about feelings and yeah...just people have such an effect on me and I'm so grateful for meeting so many people who have influenced me.
New topic: The future.
I'm so scared for the future. I'm moving to Logan on May 7th, 2011. A new freaking freezing leaf. haha. but yeah. I'm super stoked for new people and new experiences.
I hate the cold...so we'll see how I'll handle it.
St. George isn't the place to date I decided (along with like, 20 others I've discussed this with). It's purely for hooking up. And soooo I'm very excited to start dating. Every time I go home for the weekend I go on more dates than I've been on down here in the month...or more. yep. It's sad...however my kissing numbers...well, since I've moved to St. George, my numbers of high school hasn't doubled or tripled...it's like 15x itself... If that makes sense. Only 6% of my kisses were in high school. Sad to admit..but true. But in high school I was scared of it...so whatever. haha. I'm excited for GOOD guys. Hopefully...haha. I guess we'll see what Logan has to offer.
I'm excited to be done with college! and to be off to the next great adventure the world holds for me. Why stick in one place? I'm young and single.. might as well try everything out.
I want to replace fear of the unknown with curiosity.
Change is going to happen regardless of how I do it....soooo I want to make it good.